Emergency Meds

So my boyfriend and I decided to go our own separate ways to trick for the evening recently. He would go over to this guys house we know to get topped...and I would be going to another guys apartment to top him. As I'm getting ready to head over to my bottom's place, I get a very disturbing call from my partner saying that I needed to come home immediately. He was on his way, so I took a cab. I thought something bad must have happened with his trick. And I was right.

In the playtime they had together, which wasn't long...some miscommunication mixed with heat of their moment. The condom was on the bed, ready to go. And thinking the condom was on when things got started, my boyfriend proceeded to get fucked. Well, this went on for 5 or ten minutes before he realized there was no condom on and that he was bleeding a little. My boyfriend immediately went to the bathroom to wipe off and leave, a bit freaked out. The top was mortified...because he actually did think that's what my boyfriend wanted, despite my boyfriend saying he always plays safe. The look on the guy's face as my boyfriend left was pale and utterly sorrowful. I have no indication that this was done on purpose. This guy's not like that. But still no excuse for not keeping an eye on yourself and your sex partner.

(I think people think it's okay to do stuff like this with a couple, or one half of a couple, because the couple is likely safe. It's a dirty myth that should not be perpetuated. There are plenty of couples out there who are just as harmful to you as you are to them.)

We know this guy. He's a pal. He's been after my ass for ages. And he might get some one day. But not until this little mess is cleared up. He claims to have been tested as negative in the past few months. That's all well and good. But...now my boyfriend, who is unwilling to take any risk that the contrary exixts, has sought his doctor's advice.

Our doctor prescribed him the immediate Truvada once a day, Kaletra twice a day. On Monday or Tuesday, my boyfriend and the agreeable top will get blood drawn for a load count. If they both come back okay, boyfriend doesn't have to continue taking these drugs for a month. If top-man comes back with a load, however small or large...boyfriend has to be on the meds for a month. And if top-man pusses out of the test, well...boyfriend has to be on the drugs for a month, top's character will be in question, and despite his rather large dick, top will not be getting any of this ass at all.

As a result of this hookup, I was of course cock-blocked...right after taking a Cialis. And I have had no outlet whatsoever. And you Cialis users out there know just as well as I do that that's just not right. It's certainly not easy.

I kept my cool through the entire situation. So did my man. I'm proud of how we quickly and intelligently handled everything. But now I have an embarassed and scared boyfriend who has become increasingly difficult to communicate with as this is wrapping itself around his brain. I'm not mad at either of them. Shit happens. But I am quick to reiterate that people make SURE the condom is actually on before you get to fuckin. It's just common sense, and we're all guilty of forgetting at one point or another. I mean hell...once, my boyfriend and I flip-fucked a friend of ours silly one night while drunk, and we didn't use condoms. Stupid, yes. Lucky no one was hurt, yes. Everyone came out clean. And this will come out clean, I'm sure...but the behavior is what's at question.

My boyfriend is lamenting now that we'll have to go back to condoms when we make love. I'm trying to get him to understand that the love isn't the condom. The love is him and I sharing a moment. Hopefully he won't crawl into a hole and push me away out of self-inflicted guilt. I'm not going to leave him over something like this.

Wish us luck. I'll keep you updated.

Cale